Is this what it means to be at sixes and sevens?
My brain keeps flitting from one topic to another. All are terrifying. All hinge on the great "what if."
This I know for sure: Today is the last day of this. Either it improves or it ends.
Decisions used to exhilarate me. Some still do. But this.....this is too much for me. It makes me so sad and so grief stricken. I know it hasn't happened yet and I always feel as if I am drawing the bad, dark, twisty stuff to myself. But I don't know if I really believe that.
I think I've just finally gotten the lesson.
Oh god!
What if this really is the lesson? I'm so damn scared.
Well......goodbye maybe.
My brain keeps flitting from one topic to another. All are terrifying. All hinge on the great "what if."
This I know for sure: Today is the last day of this. Either it improves or it ends.
Decisions used to exhilarate me. Some still do. But this.....this is too much for me. It makes me so sad and so grief stricken. I know it hasn't happened yet and I always feel as if I am drawing the bad, dark, twisty stuff to myself. But I don't know if I really believe that.
I think I've just finally gotten the lesson.
Oh god!
What if this really is the lesson? I'm so damn scared.
Well......goodbye maybe.
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