Pain, Pain, Go Away.

Morning inventory: What hurts? Self-induced carpal tunnel? Check. Right leg, outer hip to inner thigh and on down to entire knee? Check. Heart? Check. But, this last comes and goes. Today it appeared when I opened my fb inbox and found a message from one of my favorite sisters. She got a kick out of my last status update and was going to visit my daughter today. Do I rejoice for the fun I know they'll have and the pleasant interlude I know they'll enjoy in their otherwise jam packed lives? Nope. Evil Debbe rears her ugly head as usual and I am consumed by jealousy, sadness, and despair instantaneously. Why couldn't she have called and picked me up on her way out there? Why would they want to plan a fun time without me? How DARE they enjoy themselves without me???!!! I know, I know. It's not rational. I can't help it. I am trying to help it. I love them. I just wish I could be with them.