Two months in this new residence! And hasn't this June been simply lovely? I'm trying hard to appreciate the freedom balanced against all the worry. All worth it I hope! Making decisions anyway.
Two years without my old Tareyton pals. Miss them pretty much every single day. Still glad I quit. Still looking for reasons to start up again. I have learned this never goes away. All worth it I hope!
And as a special gift, last night I finally saw the lady who speaks the language with no vowels. She was walking outside for almost three hours talking on a shiny, silver phone. It was reflecting the street lights. She wore a billowy housedress and cloth slippers. Her hair was a crushed, grey bouffant. This time she wasn't screaming and her part of the conversation seemed to have some inflection. She even laughed several times. It was a pretty night, all clean from the rain.
What I kept thinking was how jealous I was of her and how happy I was for her. I said out loud, "You are so lucky, you have someone you can talk to and you can walk." But not loud enough for her to hear me. Then the nerve in my cheek started punishing me and I cried and cried.
Today I will pretend again and do my case presentation. All worth it I hope.
Two years without my old Tareyton pals. Miss them pretty much every single day. Still glad I quit. Still looking for reasons to start up again. I have learned this never goes away. All worth it I hope!
And as a special gift, last night I finally saw the lady who speaks the language with no vowels. She was walking outside for almost three hours talking on a shiny, silver phone. It was reflecting the street lights. She wore a billowy housedress and cloth slippers. Her hair was a crushed, grey bouffant. This time she wasn't screaming and her part of the conversation seemed to have some inflection. She even laughed several times. It was a pretty night, all clean from the rain.
What I kept thinking was how jealous I was of her and how happy I was for her. I said out loud, "You are so lucky, you have someone you can talk to and you can walk." But not loud enough for her to hear me. Then the nerve in my cheek started punishing me and I cried and cried.
Today I will pretend again and do my case presentation. All worth it I hope.
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