Gut Punch

Ever have one of those experiences that lets you know something about yourself you really didn't want to know?  Today was mine.  This morning I got some bad news.  Nothing Earth shattering for me, but my perspective is a bit skewed these days.  My first reaction, my gut reaction was one of selfishness and panic.  Thems that know me know I go to that Dark Place quite frequently.  Evil Debbe takes over and has pretty much free reign for some time.  She looks like this but with glasses

Anyway, I'm always a little ashamed when she shows up.  Frankly, Evil Debbe scares me.  I think I've got to let her run around and shriek or the nice, normal me will be gone for good.  (And, yes, Monkeys!  There is a nice normal me!  You guys just can't be bothered  with her.)  But Evil Debbe should not be allowed to have contact with my daughters.  They are WAY too special for that.  But today Evil Debbe reached out for two of my girls.  I hope I caught her in time.